So I’ve realized I haven’t posted anything since last October. And thought what the hell why not now. Now is always good. I’m moving after Labor Day weekend so I have feeling me and tumblr will reconnect because I’m deff going to post all the time to keep up with all my chances and so people see how good Arizona is for me. Thats the important part the BIG CHANGE! I’m excited.

Lately. I’ve made the choice to take my weight in my own control. I’ve been trying to work a salad in a lot more and as soon as I’m all healed up and have my bills paid off I’m going to start buying healthy foods for me to eat, track what I eat to control it and start going out on the base for a work out a couple days a week before work. This summer is going to be about debt free, saving, and changes. OH! and I plan on going back to taekwondo to help whip myself into shape even more because those are intense work outs.

I’ve made a plan at the start and the year and so far my plan has been on track minus a few bumps here and there, but its all for the best. And then after this year NEXT YEAR is going to be even better. I have so many plans for next year that I can’t wait. I’m finally taking my life into my hands and I couldn’t have it any other way.

My life is about to take a crazy unexpected turn in December. I’m just along for the ride, but I’m gonna go with the flow of life because I think its time for me to do this. Regardless of the truth.

I want to run and hid like a child scared from a big monster. I’m scared alright. I’m scared of ever dating anyone else ever again. I swear. I just wish I could rip my own heart out of my chest and not care anymore. I wear my emotions on my sleeve is my freakin life. Then again I let my own personal issues get in the way. I did this to myself I know that I can’t expect things to just get fixed at the drop of a dime or anything. I did this to myself. I know that. I’m sorry for hurting you because all I’ve done is hurt myself in return. I just hope you know I never meant for this to happen. I hope you find someone who cares for you as much as I did. I’m sorry I’m just a horrible girlfriend. I’m so sorry.

(Source: thechemistrybetweenus, via hakuna-matata-lovee)